This entry is purely for me to vent and get my head around some stuff. If you want to read and comment you are welcome, but you don't have to!
So I arrive at work, to be told Boss' god daughter has tragically died. It was a terrible shock to everyone. She was only 33, and at the time 37 weeks pregnant. They did manage to do a cesar and save the baby girl though. Its horrible, sad and shocking. It's not the purpose of this post, but it sets the atmosphere I am sitting in at the moment.
I work two days a week, last week I worked Monday, then due to being sick, took Wednesday off. Boss came into my office this morning and told me I have to try and make up the days I miss as "it's only fair". I said OK, then asked "am I not entitled to sick days?" His reply was "oh yes, I would always pay you, but when you only work one day it puts a big strain on the place". Fair enough, I can see that side of things. However this is the first day I have had in a long time, infact I can't remember the last sick day I had. I should be entitled to four a year (2 weeks) same as everyone else. Sometimes stuff happens. How am I expected to come to work when I can't stop vomiting? That is just stupid really. Such is the pressure, that when the boys are sick, Brett has to take a sick day before I could. I am the mother, I am the one who works part time so that I can care for our children. Yet he is the one taking time away from his job to do that, it's not making sense.
That aside, I did agree to work another day, so which day will it be? I check out schedule.
Tuesday: Speech & Kinder
Thursday: Swimming & Kinder
Friday: Kinder & babysit Aidan
I decided Friday is the best option as I only have to get Liam to one thing that day. Call Brett and tell him the plan:
You take Liam to kinder on your way to work (he'll have to go late), I'll take Ethan out to mum's, you leave work at lunchtime, get Liam from kinder and take him to mums (That will take about 45 minutes, pretty much his whole lunch break). Then I'll pick them up on my way home. He OK's that, so I call mum to ask her, but burst into tears with frustration over how annoying it is to have to arrange all this stuff and rely on other people so much! She says the same as brett... "only 6 months left darling"
I am so sick of feeling like I am being pulled in so many different directions. I am only one person, and just can't be the four I need to be some days.
So although Boss says "I would always pay you". He really won't, because I will work three days this week and only get paid for two, as he sees the third as a make up day for the one I missed last week. I would love for him to understand the work and thought and organisation that goes into me working another day. No just on my part, but also on my DH and parents.
I just don't know how women manage to work and have a family when stuff like this happens. My boss is really a kind and lovely man, fair and generous, so I just don't think he sees it the way I do. And I'm uncomfortable to say anything more, given the issues he's dealing with in his life at the moment.